Tell me.

Tell me.
Just tell me, tell me when I take hold of your internal organs and turn them into butterfly cakes and fairy lights. Tell me because so many do it to me. So many, as you will probably come to read if these articles last on and I don't censure to much stuff.

So many turn my blood into clouds when they first blow into the room. So many turn my bones into waves of desire after a few chats and our tongues want to no longer talk but make sandwiches together. So many end up making my insides as messed up and wrong as a butcher's shop, all bloody and gore but I swear it is sweet (I have to say, the blood and gore bit is me quoting Hozier).

Tell me when I do this to you. And tell me when I'm crushing you. Tell me because I can't go through life thinking I am the only one this happens to. Tell me because I want, I truly want to create a little world where we can say theses things and I will be able to say back "I hear your heart grinding to a halt now and your feelings are beautiful" Maybe I have the same, maybe I don't, maybe I don't yet.

It's beautiful you're able to change your priorities for some time, and put some stranger-no-longer-a-stranger in your thoughts as you're using your credit card or not making your bed because these are the thoughts associated with that person.
In my head, when I am a butcher's shop inside, life continues. But at the same time, I know my blood is doing a Formula 1 race from my brain to my loins and I'm so sad no one knows the event is going on.

It's beautiful to have the privilege to do that. And, it's an act of awareness towards a world where loving someone instantly and insanely and briefly is ok and not a commitment to a life of sanitised marriage. And so I want people to be able to do this with me, I want to be a place where me not reciprocating your love with the same intensity is not the end of the world because there is no shame in it and there are many other places like me to put fairy lights on. And also because, I might just have the electricity to turn your fairy lights on...

you can show your ears Hozier if you want - he is recurrent in mine